Trust – is it redeemable?

TRUST… they say, once broken, is hard to mend. The pain is excruciating, and it can be unbearable too.
TRUST… it is not given freely. For some, it takes years to build. Even it happens in an instant, once shattered it will take longer to repair. If only it is repairable. Things will never be the same again – the wound though it is healed, the scar remains. So, how can one forget what causes the scar ?
TRUST, even if it can be redeemed, will not bring one to the place he or she once belonged. Does forgiveness mean one can start over ? And all the faults can be forgotten? Is the trust redeemable ?
TRUST, once broken, makes one very cautious. There will be invisible walls everywhere. One may not see, but the distance can be felt. The gap is forever marked. And the walls get higher as one tries to come closer. So, one will not live in the torment of a broken trust (again).
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*bedtime rambling for my ‘a word a day & personal opinion” – forcing myself to write.

Vertigo, was it?


Photo : Langkawi October 2016

I saw grey,  was it my eyes? Was it the pain in my head?

My body felt so light like floating in the air, yet my head was heavy

My feet, they were wobbly I could not stay steady

I tried holding onto the wall, my hands they could not feel

I could not open my eyes, I started to see double

Did not know which one was real, I began to stumble

Was it only in my head? Or was it the pain in my head?

Everything moved really fast I could not catch up

I felt like throwing up, nothing came out

Was it the throb in my head? Or was it me that was really weak?

The grey then got darker, the doubles became worst

I fell into my deepest slumber, paralysed in the wildest forest

I lost to the pain in my head…

Was it vertigo? I would ask everytime.

I am awake and I smile

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Hope, Love and Patience
Are here with me at all times
Don’t have to count 1 2 3
Don’t have to call for them to come
I can feel their presence even if I could not see
That’s the gift He is giving me
To help me through with this journey
Knowing that He is always there
Guiding me in every step I have to take
Giving me back my smile
So I could share with the love of my life
#gratitude