He is cute!

Learning English …

What is General Meeting?
Meeting with the general

What is a pilot project?
You take a pilot and give him a project

What is an engineer?
Someone working in scrap yard

Why didn’t you go to school?
I miss my mom

What… (I about to finish my question)
He said, You are asking too many questions…don’t you know anything?


*talking to a little boy*

My English, is it good ?


I was born alien to English
I did not see the importance
until I entered university
I don’t speak English fluently
and struggling until today
It is obvious that I have to improve
When my boys speak English better than me
I have to change and I have to practice
Through written words that I openly share
*My boys are my inspiration*

Photo : attending lecture at nearby mosque; never stop learing


Gift beyond expectation

It was not easy, if you would ask me
I did not know, no one told me
About the stress, the fear and the anxiety
And that the emotional recovery would took longer than I expected it to be

However, it was my pleasure to learn so much
I learned the meaning of true healing
About sincerity and unconditional love
I learned to look beyond the pain
I learned to let go of the unnecessary
I learned to hold on to what is important
I learned to choose what is good
I learned to disagree without guilt
I learned to stand up for myself
I learned to respect myself and every decision I made
I learned to keep going no matter how hard it would be

The recovery was indeed a soul searching moment
I got my second chance in life
To reclaim my life, to reclaim my heart
It was not about the heart beat
It was the syncronization of every breath
With thankfulness and gratitude
To still be able to wake up every day
To be given the opportunity to strive and be better each day
To be thankful for every single thing no matter how small
To understand that it wasn’t about pleasing another human being
To not be fear of people or what they would do or say

I was busy chasing my life for a while
That I did not see or I forgot to see
The straight path was always there
The light was also there to guide me
And they were patiently waiting to be explored… only I did not realize
Until that moment when I was knocked down
When I started to feel helpless and empty
I began to understand
The fall was actually a gift, a call
Which I have longed and waited for
To fill my life with

I did not know before
I did not realize
Forgive me for my ignorance

Photo : sun shining bright in the morning sky, i see hope


Fat free vs Free fat


We were having breakfast

Me : Do you want yoghurt?
Son : No, I don’t want

Me : You like yoghurt
Son : Not the ‘fat free’

Me : Why?
Son : I want to stay healthy… that yoghurt, it comes with free fat. You pay for the yoghurt and get ‘fat free’

Oh! my boy…


Photo : our recent weekend retreat after one stressful week

Learning to trust again


My words were being twisted
I was dissapointed and hurt
I trusted no more
I talked less and kept things to myself
So the words I said
Not to be used against me
I learned to ignore
I kept a distance
To calm myself
In the quest for inner peace
So I could rise again
With greater patience
And heart that is sincere
I forgive and
Slowly trying to forget
Though it is hard
For me to trust again


Photo: after sending my boys to school; morning sky