Ideas popped into my mind
Quickly I grabbed a pen
Wanted to scribble them down
But before any words were written
They just disappeared
Leaving me feeling mad
Frustrated I threw my pen
and went silent
Because, I lost it again!
*the feeling everytime I was struggling with words. And the reason why I did not update my blog for quite sometime.
I was born alien to English
I did not see the importance
until I entered university
I don’t speak English fluently
and struggling until today
It is obvious that I have to improve
When my boys speak English better than me
I have to change and I have to practice
Through written words that I openly share
*My boys are my inspiration*
Photo : attending lecture at nearby mosque; never stop learing
One touch of nature makes the whole world kin.
Photo : my daily inspiration; the sun and the sky (everyday route @0715am)
I love the sky
The sun and the clouds
They tell different story each day
Just like our daily life
So, treasure everyday
Don’t let it pass
Without trying our very best
To capture the essence of life
We may not have the second chance
Photo : shy mr sun; one hazy afternoon
I remembered seeing him crying that morning
When the one he loved the most left him forever
She left him beautiful children (us) and that gave him hopes to move on
His life was devoted raising us unconditionally
Never once he raised his voice towards us, never angry
All I could remember was the sweet memories we shared with him
He brought laughters to us his children
He never regret anything he said or done
He gave us the best education he could afford
No matter how hard his life was
He never complain and never ask for anything but the happiness of his children
He was a man with a big heart
I was away when he died because we were separated by million miles
I cried and heartbroken for not being there to say good bye
To the man I adored who believed
I found the right man the day I met my husband
Better than him, he was convinced
Memories with him gave me reasons
To bounce back whenever I was feeling down
He was my inspiration, my father..was the man
It takes lots of courage to say out loud what is in your heart. One day when you are tired of keeping quiet and accepting what is thrown to you. No matter how hurtful things are, you have to stand up for yourself. No one would. It does not matter anymore what others would say or think of you because at the end of the day they are not the one suffering. This is your life. You deserve to live your life your way.
Every action has consequences.
It comes with risks attached.
That is beyond our control.
But, Who do we fear the most?
Who do we want to please?
Who is the most deserving?
Perception won’t kill. Let them say anything they want. Yes, it hurts sometimes. That is the price you have to pay. It will teach you patience and gratitude. The challenge is there to strengthen you. You are not losing here. But being silent and keeping things to yourself for too long can cause you to slowly dying from the inside. It does. You may not realize.
Choice is yours, choose wisely.
Let go and move on.
Forgive and slowly forget.
Remember time will heals.
Believe in HIM. The Creator.
To Him we shall return. Please Him. Seek His guidance and His love. World is temporary so do what is right. Be true to yourself.
Photo : Friday morning sky; breakfast with my heroes
You could see her smile
What you could not see
She was struggling in silence
She might look strong in your eyes
But deep down
She was at her lowest point
Her expectation was high
And it seemed too far for her to reach
She was exhausted
Yet she kept moving
Because giving up is never an option
Photo : afternoon sky; fetching them from school