My nephew said yesterday, “sini asyik hujan hari-hari tapi tak pernah banjir (it is raining everyday here, but never has flooding)”. He actually wished for flooding to happen.
Though we laughed over it, I started thinking what flooding means to him. Is it the joy of seeing water everywhere so he could just stay indoors? Or was it the fact that he thinks he could play in the rising water just like swimming in the pool? Does he not think about the challenges during and after the flood to everyone? Does he know the kind of restrictions would be enforced on him if his house is affected?
I did not ask him further because of the expresssion on his face when he said that. He looked happy and innocent, the kind of look I adore in any small kids. I believe he was just curious. Somehow, he kind of got it when we told him that no one should wish for flooding to happen.
In fact, no one asks for bad things to happen. If it does happen we just have to brave ourselves and move on. Lots of prayers of course.
26th Dec. Photo after the rain@ 0630pm, note from my FB.
I never thought I’d be sad… losing something that I have never actually got to know (yet).
It has been wandering around for nearly 2 weeks in that building. I was planning to bring it home back then but, could not find it that day. I thought maybe someone had taken it home.
Then this morning it appeared on the stairs. We decided that maybe it’d best if we took it in. I managed to hold it for a while. Quick preparation was made to let it stay with us. Unfortunately we lost it again. I don’t know why… but, I got emotional.
The kitten is not even mine. It… never actually belonged to me.
Why am I sad? That, I am curious.
I fell in love the moment I heard about the poor little kitten. When I got a chance to hold it today, I got attached to it in that split second. I was sympathetic to see how fragile it was.
I wanted to have it… and make it family. It deserved a better place to stay… a better life. I wanted it to be loved, living life full of affection. I wanted to hold it longer…
I wish I will see it again; that beautiful yellow little kitten.
For now, I am happy to see what I have bought for it. My intention is good. I hope it knows… and will come back to me.
25092017. Feeling hopeful.
The ‘team’ was perfected
One time, one place
and no one was left behind.
I felt honoured at my own place
I will never let it slipped.
Cause that moment,
was neither expected nor predicted
And I had waited for a long time.
❤beautiful homecoming 130816 after the surgery
I just want to be home
With them, with him
I care no more
Of the pain
#after my surgery , day 3
Pic : excerpt from The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin; my reading during my hospital stay
You stood there
Not knowing what to say
Slowly you came to me
Lying on my bed in silence
I hugged you tight
Your heart beating fast
Then you said to me,
Mama, I want you home.
Oh dear… If only you know,
I don’t want to be here either
But, this is where I could get better
So we can have future together
Pic : latest painting before hospitalisation
“Save the best for last”
Do we have to do that?
Cause we wouldn’t know
When the last would be
And what the best is like
Try make everything our best
As if they would be our last
Photo : togetherness; standing tall @my dad’s place ( once upon a time)
Is the feeling
When I am here
Is the feeling
When I am with them
They are my home
This place is our home
Being with them in this place
Brought me back to my childhood
Memories I treasure the most.
Photo : coconut tree @my backyard