Rain effect

My nephew said yesterday, “sini asyik hujan hari-hari tapi tak pernah banjir (it is raining everyday here, but never has flooding)”. He actually wished for flooding to happen.

Though we laughed over it, I started thinking what flooding means to him. Is it the joy of seeing water everywhere so he could just stay indoors? Or was it the fact that he thinks he could play in the rising water just like swimming in the pool? Does he not think about the challenges during and after the flood to everyone? Does he know the kind of restrictions would be enforced on him if his house is affected?

I did not ask him further because of the expresssion on his face when he said that. He looked happy and innocent, the kind of look I adore in any small kids. I believe he was just curious. Somehow, he kind of got it when we told him that no one should wish for flooding to happen.

In fact, no one asks for bad things to happen. If it does happen we just have to brave ourselves and move on. Lots of prayers of course.

26th Dec. Photo after the rain@ 0630pm, note from my FB.

Not meant to be mine?

I never thought I’d be sad… losing something that I have never actually got to know (yet).

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It has been wandering around for nearly 2 weeks in that building. I was planning to bring it home back then but, could not find it that day. I thought maybe someone had taken it home.

Then this morning it appeared on the stairs. We decided that maybe it’d best if we took it in. I managed to hold it for a while. Quick preparation was made to let it stay with us. Unfortunately we lost it again. I don’t know why… but, I got emotional.

The kitten is not even mine. It… never actually belonged to me.

Why am I sad? That, I am curious.

I fell in love the moment I heard about the poor little kitten. When I got a chance to hold it today, I got attached to it in that split second. I was sympathetic to see how fragile it was.

I wanted to have it… and make it family. It deserved a better place to stay… a better life. I wanted it to be loved, living life full of affection. I wanted to hold it longer…

I wish I will see it again; that beautiful yellow little kitten.

For now, I am happy to see what I have bought for it. My intention is good. I hope it knows… and will come back to me.

25092017. Feeling hopeful.

 I want you home

You stood there

Not knowing what to say

Slowly you came to me

Lying on my bed in silence

I hugged you tight

Your heart beating fast

Then you said to me,

Mama, I want you home.

Oh dear… If only you know,

I don’t want to be here either

But, this is where I could get better

So we can have future together

Pic : latest painting before hospitalisation