I lost it!

Ideas popped into my mind

Quickly I grabbed a pen

Wanted to scribble them down

But before any words were written

They just disappeared

Leaving me feeling mad

Frustrated I threw my pen 

and went silent

Because, I lost it again!


*the feeling everytime I was struggling with words. And the reason why I did not update my blog for quite sometime. 

 I want you home

You stood there

Not knowing what to say

Slowly you came to me

Lying on my bed in silence

I hugged you tight

Your heart beating fast

Then you said to me,

Mama, I want you home.

Oh dear… If only you know,

I don’t want to be here either

But, this is where I could get better

So we can have future together

Pic : latest painting before hospitalisation

 

Dare to dream : Book

Book cover
My first book (2016)

I had the manuscript ready, hidden in my dropbox for months.
I dared not turn them into reality. I feared of rejections.
I was at a stage that I needed positivity to go on.
A rejection letter would just bring my world crashing down.

However, time flies fast, waiting for no one. I might not be able to catch up.
I told myself – I have to act now. I might not have another chance.
Even if it meant a rejection, at least I had taken a chance and given it a try instead of simply wondering… what if…

Luck was with me, the manuscript was accepted on the first attempt. That acceptance had given me positive energy and helped in my recovery.

It is now 4 months since the manuscript was accepted. My recovery is progressing.

Writing the book itself (Dec 2014 – 2015) was a therapeutic process and getting it published (2016) is a dream come true.

The Doctor is Sick

Fat free vs Free fat

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We were having breakfast

Me : Do you want yoghurt?
Son : No, I don’t want

Me : You like yoghurt
Son : Not the ‘fat free’

Me : Why?
Son : I want to stay healthy… that yoghurt, it comes with free fat. You pay for the yoghurt and get ‘fat free’

Oh! my boy…

#heissmilingagain♡

Photo : our recent weekend retreat after one stressful week