My nephew said yesterday, “sini asyik hujan hari-hari tapi tak pernah banjir (it is raining everyday here, but never has flooding)”. He actually wished for flooding to happen.
Though we laughed over it, I started thinking what flooding means to him. Is it the joy of seeing water everywhere so he could just stay indoors? Or was it the fact that he thinks he could play in the rising water just like swimming in the pool? Does he not think about the challenges during and after the flood to everyone? Does he know the kind of restrictions would be enforced on him if his house is affected?
I did not ask him further because of the expresssion on his face when he said that. He looked happy and innocent, the kind of look I adore in any small kids. I believe he was just curious. Somehow, he kind of got it when we told him that no one should wish for flooding to happen.
In fact, no one asks for bad things to happen. If it does happen we just have to brave ourselves and move on. Lots of prayers of course.
26th Dec. Photo after the rain@ 0630pm, note from my FB.
Tears welled up his eyes
I could understand
The feelings he tried to hide
I offered him a hug
And he cried his heart out
Letting go what was buried inside
His mind, his heart are now cleared
And we are ready to move forward
*talking to my boy after the surgery
You stood there
Not knowing what to say
Slowly you came to me
Lying on my bed in silence
I hugged you tight
Your heart beating fast
Then you said to me,
Mama, I want you home.
Oh dear… If only you know,
I don’t want to be here either
But, this is where I could get better
So we can have future together
Pic : latest painting before hospitalisation
I had her with me for a while only
I did not understand then
And I sometimes asked why
Why was I given only a short time
With the one I called my mum
Now that I have children of my own
I truly appreciate those early years
And life after the loss
That I should live in the moment
Be thankful of every challenge…
Pic : my painting ‘letting go'(i shall rise again)
*my mothers day jotting
I thought it had come to an end
Clearly, a new journey had just begin
Though it seems too far to achieve
I am up to this challenge
Give me time and space
Pen and also paper
I shall make progress
Because once I’ve started, I will not stop
Pic : it does tell it all, the picture that i draw
Learning English …
What is General Meeting?
Meeting with the general
What is a pilot project?
You take a pilot and give him a project
What is an engineer?
Someone working in scrap yard
Why didn’t you go to school?
I miss my mom
What… (I about to finish my question)
He said, You are asking too many questions…don’t you know anything?
*talking to a little boy*
I was born alien to English
I did not see the importance
until I entered university
I don’t speak English fluently
and struggling until today
It is obvious that I have to improve
When my boys speak English better than me
I have to change and I have to practice
Through written words that I openly share
*My boys are my inspiration*
Photo : attending lecture at nearby mosque; never stop learing