Path & light

To learn is a life long commitment. You’ll never know/learn enough. The dark path that you thought had brought you down can lead you to the most beautiful things in your life. It is fascinating to see how dreams transform into reality and how much you can achieve in the most difficult times when you least expect them. Trust your instinct, put your heart and mind into it… and venture down that that path with hope and courage. That’s the beacon that will not lead you astray. Look hard and follow the light. That beacon’s light is always there but sometimes you are distracted by the scenery around you making you forget its call. Seek for the light… dare yourself to dream, and dream big. Trust me, you’ll get there…

Have I found mine? I dare not say…

Idayu Maarof, 29th July 2017

Author; The Doctor is Sick (2016)

I lost it!

Ideas popped into my mind

Quickly I grabbed a pen

Wanted to scribble them down

But before any words were written

They just disappeared

Leaving me feeling mad

Frustrated I threw my pen 

and went silent

Because, I lost it again!


*the feeling everytime I was struggling with words. And the reason why I did not update my blog for quite sometime. 

Reflections of the heart

Listen to the echoes

& the whispers from within

You are not alone

I’ll keep you safe

If you live by the rules
 

Feel for the beating flesh

As it rushes and gushes

Far beyond imagination

Crossing every turn

Filling every space

To feed your soul

With the whispers & echoes

That say, listen and understand

You are racing against time

Do you live by the rules?
 

Just listen to the echoes

& the whispers from within

That is your guidance

Till the flesh stops beating

Till the gushes flow no more

The echoes come to an end

& the whispers go silent

Did you live by the rules ?

You will be asked again
 So, listen while you can

To the echoes & whispers from within

That tell you to embrace life

That tirelessly feed your soul

Before your time comes to an end

When you are alone

And no one can keep you safe

Unless you lived by the rules

As echoed by the beating flesh.

 

 

*embrace life*

Inspired by echocardiogram.

Written after my echo @ National Heart Centre (#IJN) on 05052017.

I feel her pain

She broke the news

I went silent

I did not know what to say

Fearing I might hurt her more

I could feel her pain

It was like deja vu

I had been there

But my storm was almost over

Whilst hers had strucked her like thunder

Abrupt and sudden

That she had no time to prepare

When she was told, ” You have cancer”

……

I wish her well, in my prayers I’ll always whisper her name❤

*for a special friend battling with cancer. I know she is strong.

Grieve no more


I learned to ignore

I learned to keep a distance

I allowed myself to grieve

I did not resist

I broke down and cried

Until I suffocated no more

Until I was able to breathe

Until my heart told me that I was ready

To embrace my vulnerability

To embrace my life

And to get back to where I left off

Things will get better, I will get better, that I will always believe.

*written during my recovery from brain surgery*

Photo : morning sky, gloomy day

Don’t let it burst

Clearly I was mad

Very angry till I cried

I sealed my mouth tight

Trying hard to stay composed

Though I was burning inside.

Silently I prayed and wiped my tears

Swallowed my anger to avoid danger.

I could not let this outrage burst

Else, many might get hurt

(That was weak of me)

Pic : one of my painting ; acrylic on paper (blue series)

Doctor’s smile

A sincere smile means a lot

When it comes after hard work

I know giving hope is not an easy job

It is pure deed coming from a golden heart

A million thanks I repeatedly said

Will never match the good that I have received

*Dedicated to my doctors, may they be granted the best in life.

Photo : first bake after my surgery.

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